How to proceed

Current world of software development doesnt make much sense to me. I started this journey when I was in a dark state of mind. Anxiety and depression were on my back 24/7. I always had great hopes for myself regarding doing something cool and challenging. Unfortunately I picked wrong school and got stuck in chemistry. If you imagine software development as something extremely open and being able to express yourselves... Chemistry is the polar opposite. Everything needs to be by the book... Havin