i dont know if its right

these are some notes from a disappointment programmer. i've been working in the field of frontend-development (and backend development a bit) primarly with javascript for almost three years, and right now im on a state of a deep disappointment, i cant even afford basic things in life (i usally dont talk about things like this...) and i dont have a propper job, my family keep telling me to move to a new career and silence.... i have been good in my job though, i always hear compliments from my co